I really wanted it to be amazing...it's a post about the new year, after all. I wanted to encapsulate my year of 2011. I wanted to scrawl and scratch out all of it. The beautiful and the ugly. The tiny, stunning memories I wanted to hold on to forever.
I wanted to write about how much better 2012 will be, because it's always supposed to be 'better', right? Oh boy. I wanted to do that.
But, you know what? I'm not gonna.
Because, when I sat down to get it all out, to shower the interwebs with all of 2011's beautifully complicated intricacies as I bid it adieu and welcomed in 2012, all I could come up with was this:
"2011 was...hhmmm...like any other year."
Good, bad, ugly, serendipitous, beautiful, horrible, incredible, normal, new, old....all the time.
In 2011, I lived.
It's a strange place to be in, this 5-days-into-a-new-year sorta place. It feels like we're commanded to be either saying goodbye to the past or welcome the future with open arms. I mean we have all of the "year in reviews", the "best of" stuff, the resolutions, all of the "this year I will....", but where is the RIGHT NOW?
Well, you guys, here is my now:
Hearing my sweet love saying, "I love you. You make me happy." while he cooks a beautiful meal with this beautiful song filling my heart and my ears. Squeezing him tight in our cute, cramped, yellow paint filled kitchen. It's out of a movie and it's right here.
This sweet boy of mine and a small group of friends sure did have a beautiful time saying hello to 2012, though, I'll tell you what. But this year felt different. Maybe it's because it was 'drama'-free. Maybe it's because I'm getting older. Maybe it's just because. But this time it was all about being present. Being present and grateful for it all.
xoxo,
Adie
i'm right there with ya sister! be here now! that is the theme for 2012...well, actually...i try to make that my theme for each year, each month, each day. i think this is the best kind of goal, a little tricky to manage at first, but easily attainable with a bit of work. funny how shutting out the chaos and being present takes effort...but...you can do it!...we can do it! ;)
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Rock on my lovely friend! I hope 2012 is everything you hope and more. You're a beautiful person with a beautiful soul and you deserve nothing but all the happiness in the world! <3
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Your "now" sounds pretty freaking wonderful :)
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